Rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me TRUTH.


7 de junio de 2010

I'm fucked up. Everything is gone away. I'm not even writting any more. I don't know what things I would like to do when I grow up, I feel so useless at all the areas of my life. Even music has disapointed me. I'm not sure if a would like make or teach music any more. He's dying and it's seems I'm dying with him because I don't like anything, I don't love anyone. I don't want to die but life is getting hard you know?... I don't know, I think I'm lost in this world, in this society. Everything seems so fake, so fragile. I don't even care about past anymore. This is a strange feeling...don't care about people who I was obsessed with. Well, maybe I care about them but in a healthy way you know?, I mean they've changed and I've changed too, so I wish they are ok but far far away from here. I think I'm worried about future. What am I gonna do with my life, if I'm gonna stop fucking things and running away from every relationship. I'm worried because for the first time in my life I'm thinking seriously the fact that I'm possible going to be a lonely person for ever.I'm not even sad about this or happy about good things. I'm just surviving. I think I need a fucking boyfriend or alcohol or something... Fuck me, I'm fucking fucked up.

Ce,

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